~rhythm of life~

This is supposed the title of the song...
during my return to my kampung,
i watched a hong kong series...
which played this song...

it truly resembled how did i feel...
i thought of leaving penang..
would make me forget about all those wonderful moments we spent together in penang...
at least...
i want to delete something in my mind.....

i can't hold it anymore...
it is truly torturing......
thinking that u who did not even check on me..
thinking of what u told me or promised before this...
you did not even do it at all....

i m truly hurt...
my heart broke into pieces...
i suffered...
i looked at the pictures of us having fun together........
stared at the pictures and thinking of wonderful moments...
tears hold on my eyes...
i just try to be strong and not to cry...

i miss u...
but,
trying to deny that...
not willing to admit...
because i want to live on present...

i m truly frustrated,
not being able to hear from you at all..
not even a proper chat with you..
it's truly disappointing...

i have to be strong...
to stand on my own..
you are not there to help me...
i m lost...
lost in the real world...

i even dream...
that i die in my dream...
not being able to meet you at all...

perhaps..
we are from the separate world,
who are meant to live in separate lives...