~rhythm of life~

now,
i truly know,
who are you...

i truly understand,
who i am to you...

when you are with me,
you are my best friend,
when you leave me,
i am like nobody...

sometimes,
i really mad at you,
why are you being selfish,
trying to give me things that make me remember you,
when you leave me,
you do not even contact me at all...

to compare with another friend,
whom i knew for not more than 5 days,
even keep in touch with me,
when he left this country,
he even keep in touch with me,
contacted me through fb when he reached safely in his country.
but..
YOU..
are my best friend,
we are buddies for more than 2 months,
when you return to your country,
i got to wait for you for 4 days to know how are you....
the first call that i received after 4 days,
is not about how are you..
is about what is your personal detail for some particular purpose...
at that time,
i really want to kill you..
i m extremely mad at you...
i m still sad in my heart..
to have friend like you..
i will forgive you..
i know how to deal with this in future...

now...
after so many days,
you are still in my mind,
i will try my best...
to let go all my feelings..
stop thinking about you...
to prepare what am i supposed to do...
after this,
try to change my routine...

i wish...
i can delete my memory..
it will make me less mentally tortured...