once upon a time, a girl sent her brother back to his country. She tried to hold on her emotion...she just left him by waving to each other.
she has everything a girl wish to own. her soul is lonely. she lived in circumstances that she has no chance to control and decide for her life. She is born and tied down with lots of control from people around her. She was unhappy in her life. She knew that she had no choice but to live with it. She always wish that someone would listen to her and at least to care for her. She knew this may not even happen as people nowadays just busy about their own lives. There is no such word like caring in the society.
A lonely soul is meant to understand another lonely and yet complicated soul in the same situation. Perhaps the difference is just the condition that they live in. She could identify and understand what this boy is lacking of or trying to hide of. It is not that she is powerful. She could sense what this boy is thinking and why he is behaving like that. It is because they are the same. She could know whether the boy is happy or not and each of his steps.
This girl has lots of restriction in life. She does not know who she is. She is in a state of confusion. Her life has been created in a way that everything would be arranged and she is always forced to follow others' opinion. She could not even have and imagine how her dream wedding would be like. The only thing she knew is to follow. It seems like a must if follow others' view. When she close her eyes, everything is a blank. She has lost herself. She does not know what she wants for her future. The only thing she enjoys the most is studying and working. It is because she has the only power to hold her works tightly and create the best out of it. No one will force her to do things. Other than day, she is always a follower. She rather to escape and not to care and bother. SUBMISSIVE..this is the word. THis girl has been depressed for a long time. She has lost in the middle of her life. She did not know anything about this life. She cannot speak up at all for what she wants. What a silent girl................
Today, she send her brother who always made her feel happy and being herself is leaving. She is just holding her emotion....not showing anything and pretend to have nothing.
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