~rhythm of life~

            

I knew I have neglected this blog for some time..I was too busy with my new life now. I am still adjusting my life as a student.

New chapter of life? I have decided to further my studies in master as a full time student. There are mixture of feelings here.

The thing that made me really happy is I am able to concentrate fully in studies without bothering about other works matter. I felt almost sick of the heavy workload in school where I hardly breath. I was extremely stress teaching in the school which was not really being appreciated from my point of view. I hate to work in such stressful environment where I felt so depressed most of the time. Now, I felt that it's time for me to empower my skills and knowledge in order to help more people in future. I have done really a lot of things all these while and I think this is the best time for me to leave. At least, I have done my duty well with achievement until district level.

On the other hand, I felt so sorry for my kids. Having the soul of teacher really made me feel bad leaving the kids alone in school like that. Some of them still need my guidance. Some of them was sad when they knew that I was leaving them. Some of them were lost..Some of them sms me telling me that no one is teaching them at the moment. I wish I really could help them. But nothing can be done.

I got to focus on my goal. I hope that they will get guidance from some good teachers one day. I wish I will be there to help them. I will always remember them. Truly miss the kids!!