~rhythm of life~

Our jokes,

Today
I m truly happy
Tasted the best meal ever...
Tender and soft chicken...
Beautiful setting with lovely designed table...

I enjoy every moments be with you...
Hope this will be the start of our new journey...
Continue our studies with full commitment..
Cheers for our partnership...
I truly like it.....

Reliable, 

Is it good or not to have changes?
Changes can be good...
It is not easy to describe changes...
So many changes now and then...

I am struggling...
Wish to complete so many goals at once,
But I don't have confident at All...
I hate myself
Living in such unhappy life...
Feeling stress and hard to find myself...

More and more friends are leaving me slowly,
Time after time,
I know I will miss them one after one...
Until the day I stop breathing....

now,
i truly know,
who are you...

i truly understand,
who i am to you...

when you are with me,
you are my best friend,
when you leave me,
i am like nobody...

sometimes,
i really mad at you,
why are you being selfish,
trying to give me things that make me remember you,
when you leave me,
you do not even contact me at all...

to compare with another friend,
whom i knew for not more than 5 days,
even keep in touch with me,
when he left this country,
he even keep in touch with me,
contacted me through fb when he reached safely in his country.
but..
YOU..
are my best friend,
we are buddies for more than 2 months,
when you return to your country,
i got to wait for you for 4 days to know how are you....
the first call that i received after 4 days,
is not about how are you..
is about what is your personal detail for some particular purpose...
at that time,
i really want to kill you..
i m extremely mad at you...
i m still sad in my heart..
to have friend like you..
i will forgive you..
i know how to deal with this in future...

now...
after so many days,
you are still in my mind,
i will try my best...
to let go all my feelings..
stop thinking about you...
to prepare what am i supposed to do...
after this,
try to change my routine...

i wish...
i can delete my memory..
it will make me less mentally tortured...

When I chat with you,
We will talk about one thing- studies...
We will have a lot of things to talk about...
Other than that,
No conversation between us..

I am worried,
After this,
You will totally ignore me,
Where there may be no conversation at all....

I really my brother will really care about me.....
I miss my brother...
Wish he will be my true brother...

today..